When I was big I was desperate to be 'normal'. I was desperate to be just like everyone else. I was desperate to be able to wear the same clothes as everyone else, to be treated like everyone else and not to stand out because of my size. I wanted to be normal so much that I used to cry myself to sleep and dream of being someone else. I wanted to be the stereotypical normal person who was 12 stone, 5ft 10in, brown hair, 32 inch waist and then I could be happy. But then this strange thing happened, I became 'normal'. I got to the perfect BMI and I was absolutely normal....

And I hated it! I wanted to be normal but then when I got it I wanted to be unique and be myself and not conform to everyone else's opinions of what I should be, and therefore I rebelled against it. So turning this to you? Do you really want to be normal? Or do you want to be yourself? Because I would say that you being yourself means you living your life, to your rules, in your way and then welcoming those you care about to share the real you.

I literally spent my entire 20's not being the real me, I would be so scared of upsetting people or saying the wrong thing that I used to feel terrible all the time and would eat to cheer up. Not any more! I am just the real unique me, and if you like me then great, if you don't like me then great! I won't be somebody I am not anymore and I certainly am not normal!

So rejoice in the fact you are unique, I cleared the path last night of weeds with a weedkiller gun and the whole time I was pretending to be James Bond, now that may make me stupid, childish and not normal in some people's eyes but I don't have to look through their eyes and I enjoyed it so I don't care!